I think I’m burned out from a week of some serious advocacy with over 500 other people with disabilities in D.C. but I’m hurting right now. I don’t feel like I fit in anywhere. It was very powerful to be around so many people with disabilities but even among my peers I felt alone. It’s true  that I have cerebral palsy but I feel sometimes that others who are disabled don’t consider me disabled because I can walk. And among people who are  able-bodied it’s clear that I’m disabled. Add the fact that I have never felt comfortable among any Christian circles I been in,I’m always torn trying to discover who I am. I write this because even though I been a youth pastor I want kids to know that even adults struggle with stuff.

     The only peace I get is know that I belong to God and He loves me.

18 “If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. 19 If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. 20 Remember the word that I said to you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours. 21 But all these things they will do to you on account of my name, because they do not know him who sent me. -John 15:18-19

     The only thing I know is I’m going to try to love people the way God loves me. I never want to make people feel the way I feel right now. I know God will help me through this. God Bless.